feast or famine.

if you think things are awesome, it's common to think

that every little thing is awesome.

if you think things suck,

pretty much everything sucks.

so i'm gonna try something.

first of all, i'll be honest...

a few things suck right now.

but not everything.

so before i ruin everything with a negative attitude

i've decided that i'm going to be super grateful for the

awesome things:

my boyfriend is amazing.

i think he might be tired of me telling him that.

but he is.

he is encouraging, patient, smart, caring,

helpful, a very talented musician, handsome,

makes an awesome sandwich,

and he has a great heart.

he makes me happy.

my mom is awesome.

she's really funny, she can cook like nobody's business,

she's loving, she works her butt off,

and she taught me everything i know.

i love my mom.

my friends are the best.

i enjoy my daily soda walks and

watching hours and hours of vampire-related tv.

i guess this was just a pep talk to myself.

i quit making plans.

:i shouldn't be an optimist:

but somehow, i just keep thinking

everything will work out perfectly.

i make plans...

get big ideas...

go on adventures...

and things always end differently

than i imagined.

:ok, that's not fair:

some things do end up pretty rad.

there are good things.

i can make a list right now.

:but as for today:

today i feel that making plans sucks.

so i quit.

when will minimum wage be $15?

:first things first:

happy birthday mom!

:down to business:

i've reached the conclusion

that my "big girl" marketing job

sucks.

walking 7 hours a day in the hot sun

knocking on the doors of rude people

(who obviously don't need a windshield)

and making zero monies

seriously sucks.

in my current situation

one would think i don't have the option

to be picky.

but my sanity was on the line.

working your butt off

and literally making no money doing it

will mess with your head.

so the search continues.

yesterday i applied at mellow mushroom.

today i apply at starbucks

and everywhere else in 5 pts.